Dance Macabre 7-7-2016

Hi kids!
Welcome to the home of my personal blog. I've entitled it Teaching My Skeletons How To Dance. I've got a bunch of things hiding in my human closet that need to be aired out. I have a career that requires no movement or exercise. My job rarely sees another life form. Working on other artist's songs is usually unfulfilling. All this is has become unacceptable. I've never been afraid of my fears because they are always with me. It has become a bit like The Stockholm Syndrome. I have learned to find comfort in my life as it is, no matter how unfulfilling because it is safe. I hate safe. Years ago...like 1983, I did a gig with a fairly well known artist from Long Island. I was filling in. I did a good job but I played it "safe". I knew I could have stretched out a bit more. I was allowed. But I edited myself and played it safe. And I've been kicking myself since then  for that one night. The thing about playing for other people is, you have to be professional and give them what they want. And I swear, all you need to do is put on some music to really hear how uncreative and cookie cutter most music is. So...my way around it? Stop working for them UNLESS I am allowed to do what I do. That is what my future holds. A life dancing across 6 strings, ready to fall in between if I have to. I accept my fate.
I am moving in 2 weeks. For the following 3 months I will be without a studio. I will spend that time practicing, learning about myself, Getting my body moving again....basically relearning where I was heading 30 years ago. It all changed for several reasons 30 years ago this coming November. Is it a mere coincidence I am now ready to pick up the pieces, open the closet where I hid myself, and get my substructure back in the game? New life, new city, new music.
Join me on this ride....I won't be holding back.
Ron

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